A Rug.


The day we first met, you made me laugh. 

We had so fun, and i instantly knew , oh he is the one. 


You made my heart flutter and my eyes shine. I was literally on cloud nine. 


You understood me like no one else could ever, I decided i was not letting this go. No , NEVER. 


You trusted me , letting me fly like a dove. You made me realise what it feels like to be in love. 


We wandered around the whole city , clubs and towns. We also had our arguments, ups and downs.


Misunderstandings, incompatibilities came as a shock, Yet we stood strong like a rock.


Things were going great, relationship was healed, everyday felt as we were having our fav meal. 


Then one day you said those words, 

And trust me it still hurts.

Things you said shattered me to my core, and I couldn’t take it anymore. 


I tried running away from you , but you were my HOME that was all i knew. 


Heart was broken but love stayed the same and I couldn’t wipe off your name. How did it feel to play all these games? 


Time passed with haze, i cried for nights and days. The love i had for you was worth the pain, so i decided to try again. 


You made me feel like i was your worst mistake. I guess my love was just a single drop of water in your empty lake.


Yet i was there. Asking , begging for the love we initially had 

and you thought i have gone mad. 


You pitied me and said we would try again. 

I don’t know what it was but it felt like rain.


The words were droplets of peace , it felt as i was free of some lease.


We tried or shall i say i tried? In return i just got lied. 


I was Broken i was shattered. But for me being with you , was the only thing that mattered.


I healed myself to try again . To gain some love , to gain some pain. 


You took me for granted made me feel shit , i knew it wasn’t the last hit. I kept trying cus I didn’t want to quit and then i was alone in the love pit. 


You prioritised  the whole world over me, and i kept searching for your heart’s key. I was confused , i was in the middle of a sea. Couldn’t reach the shore, couldn’t ask for more. 

This is my destiny, now i have to walk through the door.


If i go will you stop me?

Will you sit on your knee? 

Will you ask me to stop? 

Will you hold me if i drop? 


Will you ask me to stay? 

Or will you just let me go away? 


Ask your self do i love this girl enough? Is life going to be easy or tough? 


If the answer is yes then come to me and give me a hug. 

If no then let me go, anyway to you i was just a RUG.

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